I was partying so much I was called "Ultimate Party Girl" by a hip lifestyle magazine and I thought this was cool. And cooler that you get invited to these ultra-exclusive velvet roped events, and you think you're "IT" and people put you on a pedestal thinking you're somebody important, or what they call "VVIP." That was really nice to hear, it felt good, it felt like you're the shit. But the problem with this is that you get hooked to this lifestyle and you think that that's really it, that "you're there." Then you get a magazine cover for just being famous in the scene, event pages and even get discovered by modeling agencies. But as I grew up I realized that constant partying leads you to more parties, more exclusive VIP rooms, By-Invitation house parties and get you nowhere. I know that at the end of the night most of us go home to our real lives, lives that we try to escape from. As for me, I was escaping from my own nightmares.
Only until recently, I realized I was escaping from poverty, from becoming part of that race, I didn't want to be seen as "poor." I wanted the limelight, the recognition, the mention of Avi Siwa on every event, I wanted everyone to know me - that I'm the coolest person you'll meet. I loved the controversy, the scandals, I came out in a TV show called "OUT" to make this point clear - that I don't give a shit about anybody and no one can stop me from doing anything I please to do, that it's cool to be me. Not my parents, not my boyfriend, nobody is on top of me. It makes me sick thinking how that instant stardom - being the country's sudden gay icon has blown up my ego. That was dumb. The blinging lifestyle and billboards defocused me. Like Robin Sharma says "Nothing fails like success."
One morning, after a long weekend of crazy partying, I heard a voice. It said "I thought you want it that bad?" It shook me to my core. I got up from the couch where I was living for months and went back home to my family. I changed. From the scandalous Ultimate Party Girl that everyone knew to becoming unstoppable Serial Entrepreneur. I took the reigns to get my life together and started building Sly.
I don't find it scandalous enough in fact it's not as scandalous as Jenna Jameson's, however we do need to sacrifcie party lifestyle to be really successful like doing great buisness. Last time we met I was just a beginner in Amway Buisness now I am the Buisness Strategist, Tactician and Executor for Team Japan. It only took me months to be a Great Leader. Good luck on your endeavours. Our paths will cross again and I know it. See you there :))
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